Disquiet

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Siberian Dogwood - Cornus alba 'Sibirica'

Disquiet

In the stillness of fog and dew
a frost that clings to thin branches of dogwood
we wonder
whether bees dream as they slumber
sweet visions of nectar
and multicolored pollen

In the quiet of
this dip
down to low light
down to root-chilling cold
down to the torpor of warm, furry bodies

There is a disquiet.
It is envy.

We envy your certainty
your instinct
the patterns you follow
that reassure you 
the world will still be here when you wake

The veins 
newly formed on tender leaf buds
yet unfurled
somehow knowing that sunlight and rain
won’t fail them

Of all the winter animals
we are the unluckiest
because our dreams end
because we remember loss
because we carry fear
where you only know need and hard work

Let us carry seeds in our pockets
to sow as we walk the paths we created 
year by year
a shared memory of resilience and desire
waiting for water and warmth

Your trans friend,

Robin